Monday, September 26, 2005
My fav cat is dying and I’m do blaw
I have had a lot going on in my life and just not felt like writing.
The saddest thing in my life is that my favourite cat Athena is dying. I don’t know when the last time she ate was, at least 3 days ago, but it has been going on for a while; just hard to notice with my self-absorbed behaviour as of late.
I first noticed she was looking a little slimmer than usually and acting kind of strange but not until the last week did I see daily the weight dropping off, and now she is all skin and bones. She hasn’t had anything to eat or drink in the last three days but a touch of yogurt a little bit of water and a few mouthfuls of wet cat food.
We’re taking her to the vets tomorrow. I cried myself to sleep last night for letting it go so long, but I really didn’t realize until really yesterday or the day before how bad she really was. I though she would just fight through a little cold or something and be okay.
I literally hate myself for leaving it so long and want to cry for letting her suffer because I wasn’t paying attention as I should have been.
The reason I have been so self absorbed is that I have been so focused on learning about diabetes.
Oh I have managed to prick my finger now, and in the last week done it 41 times.
I haven’t been keeping up on anything else, including my OD.
There has been a lot going on in my life too besides a sick cat, and my fingers so full of holes I’m surprised I haven’t had my fingers fall apart.
Steph has two on call jobs, and is doing better than she was. She is still fairly obsessed about her body. Thankfully it has calmed down a little bit now that she has been diagnosed.
She went to her doctor who told her that she had pulled a muscle in her belly area.
She went to the clinic a few days later, told the Dr there the same list of symptoms and went away with a diagnosis of Irritable Bowel Syndrome. Of course this hasn’t totally calmed her down.
In an attempt to see how the medications I’ve been taking for various things have been affecting my blood sugars (all non prescriptions) and I have been off them now full for 3 days and there hasn’t been a huge change in my BS but I’m giving it a month with no medication and then I’m going to go back on them and see if there is.
I have learned no more porgies or delicio pizza for me.
The saddest thing in my life is that my favourite cat Athena is dying. I don’t know when the last time she ate was, at least 3 days ago, but it has been going on for a while; just hard to notice with my self-absorbed behaviour as of late.
I first noticed she was looking a little slimmer than usually and acting kind of strange but not until the last week did I see daily the weight dropping off, and now she is all skin and bones. She hasn’t had anything to eat or drink in the last three days but a touch of yogurt a little bit of water and a few mouthfuls of wet cat food.
We’re taking her to the vets tomorrow. I cried myself to sleep last night for letting it go so long, but I really didn’t realize until really yesterday or the day before how bad she really was. I though she would just fight through a little cold or something and be okay.
I literally hate myself for leaving it so long and want to cry for letting her suffer because I wasn’t paying attention as I should have been.
The reason I have been so self absorbed is that I have been so focused on learning about diabetes.
Oh I have managed to prick my finger now, and in the last week done it 41 times.
I haven’t been keeping up on anything else, including my OD.
There has been a lot going on in my life too besides a sick cat, and my fingers so full of holes I’m surprised I haven’t had my fingers fall apart.
Steph has two on call jobs, and is doing better than she was. She is still fairly obsessed about her body. Thankfully it has calmed down a little bit now that she has been diagnosed.
She went to her doctor who told her that she had pulled a muscle in her belly area.
She went to the clinic a few days later, told the Dr there the same list of symptoms and went away with a diagnosis of Irritable Bowel Syndrome. Of course this hasn’t totally calmed her down.
In an attempt to see how the medications I’ve been taking for various things have been affecting my blood sugars (all non prescriptions) and I have been off them now full for 3 days and there hasn’t been a huge change in my BS but I’m giving it a month with no medication and then I’m going to go back on them and see if there is.
I have learned no more porgies or delicio pizza for me.
